Its kinda frustrating here doing what i do. Do it right people dont appreciate. Do it wrong prople complain like hell. Its like everything you do do not really matter. Its just frustrating and i just wanna let go. Allow God for He is truly in control. Many times ive put thongs in my hand leaving me miserable when it doesnt go to plan. My biggest pain had been about broken loyalties. That had been my greatest fear and thus my eeakness. Ive slways valued loyalty because its what my dad modelled and taught me. But in this day and age where prople do not really care, i find myself betrayed all the time. And the Lird has taught me to look unto Him in all things. None of these things are in my control.